Poetry

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I’ve wasted days
And wasted years
I’ve hidden from problems
And given in to fears

I’ve slept through days
And stayed up all night
I’ve battled relentlessly
And given in without a fight

I’ve cut ties
And bound my hands
I’ve followed wrong paths
And made bad plans

I’ve felt the pull of desires
And repressed drives
I’ve seen the depths of depression
And I’ve survived

I’ve gone numb
And felt empty inside
I’ve sought out comfort
And tired to hide

I’ve used my friends
And abused myself
I’ve made decisions
And listened to someone else

I’ve forgotten the good things
And remembered the bad
I’ve accepted my fate
And I’ve gotten mad

I’ve said too much
And kept secrets too long
I’ve known everything
And I’ve been wrong

I’ve lost my way
And found reasons to live
I’ve taken chances
And had something to give

I’ve had moments of inspiration
And learned to hate life
I’ve sacrificed everything
And never gotten it right

walk in here

Is this still my decision
Or did it just slip from my hands
Did you just walk in here
And completely change my plans

I thought I knew what was next
I had it all figured out
And you just walked in here
And put that all in doubt

I knew what I was doing
I was just about to start
Then you just walked in here
And it suddenly fell apart

I was finally moving forward
But now I’m all turned around
Why did you just walk in here
And turn my world upside-down

night62@lycos.com

Fairy tale life

A fairy tale life
Without a care
A little princess
With ribbons in her hair
A life full of happiness
Wild and free
Never a worry
About what will be
A fairy tale life
So full of dreams
The round eyes
With an excited gleam
Plenty of time
To just have fun
Always prepared
For a day in the sun
A fairy tale life
But the child grows
And too soon
The child knows
There is more to life
Than fun and laughter
And not everything ends
Happily ever after

Never thought

Never thought about the future
Never looked that far ahead
Never bothered to imagine
That this could really be said

Never thought about tomorrow
Never could see past today
Never really believed that
It would be this way

Never thought this day would happen
Never knew it’d last this long
Never considered that life
Would prove it all so wrong

Never thought it would finish
Never thought it’d reach the end
Never stopped to think about
How to start again

Never thought about the future
Never looked that far ahead
Never bothered to imagine
That this could really be said

said too much

I said too much
I know that now
I knew it before
But I said it anyhow
Maybe I was
Just not prepared
I told you the truth
But now I’m scared
I guess I may
Have gone too far
Not sure I like things
The way they are
I don’t think what
I said was wrong
It’s how I have
Felt all along
I am finally now
Done with pretending
Don’t know if this
Will be a happy ending
What’s done is done
It can’t be unsaid
Now I wait
And see what’s ahead
I said too much
I knew it then
If I had the chance
I think I’d do it again